Thursday, 30 January 2014

the secret truth.




So, that was it.
I was right.
It is true.

About what I thought from the very beginning.

The good thing is
I don't feel anything.


Weird.



P.s. "I wish you health. I wish you happiness. But absolutely nothin' else." THIS.


with love,

Monday, 27 January 2014

That annoying moment.


That annoying moment when your notes/books you love so much, you put a lot of effort to make it colourful and pleasant to read, you flipped the pages carefully not to ruin the paper, but on one fine day, without notice, water bottle spilled inside of your bag, and your notes were soaked, completely. 

Ahhh... dugaan apakah ini? Nanges-nanges iron balik setiap page. 2 jam. Kaler berkecamuk, kertas berkedut-kedut. 


P.s. Ada je nanti rasa nak print baru and kaler balik semula. Kalau exam lambat lagi memang dah buat dah. Hmm. Kenapa sekarang? Warummmmmmm??
P.s.p.s. Botol air tu.. memang tak pakai dah lah. Hishhhh marah marah!


with love,

Saturday, 25 January 2014

Wan's farewell party.

Assalamualaikum!

It is almost the end of January, next month is gonna be a super hectic month for us.. EXAMS! 

Since we would be busy with exams, we decided to have an early farewell party for Wan since he will leave Stuttgart by the end of February.

We had simple-menu-yet-soooo-yummy Nasi Tomato, cocktail, and cake, yeaa that ugly cake is my doing. It's a longgggg story.


I guess he really didn't expect us to celebrate him this week, sebab dia tak shave misai hahahaa. Too bad!


So, the story behind the cake.

I've baked it the night before. When I was about to start, I realized I've bought the wrong ingredient. Instead of buttermilch, I've took sauermilch. But still I have to use it and added some milk too. Baking part was fine, it took me only an hour to bake.

The decorating part.. was disaster. After Subuh, it was around 7 a.m., I've started it with full of passion. Put the cream cheese and chocolate pieces on the cake slowly, then the flowers as decoration. When I started to write down the name in red, my handwriting turned out so ugly that I had to remove it and reapply the white cream cheese to cover the damages. I wrote again and this time, I've spelt the name wrong. I had to repeatedly do it over again and when it was almost done, kechepekkk! the spatula fell on the cake! Ahhhhhhhh. I think I wrote and removed it about 6 or 7 times. The cream turned out pink and I had no white cream cheese left. Sememangnya nak kerja Secret Recipe tak layak, apatah lagi berangan nak buka cafe jual cake and coffee. Chetppodah.

I was totally disappointed with the result that I feel like want to throw it away or ask Fatin to buy a new one, frozen cake. It was almost 11 a.m. when I stopped decorating and accepted my failure. 4 hours. My kitchen was in chaos and I was wiping the floor because the red colouring powder felt on the floor when Farah and Aina arrived. 


Bab edit gambar memang serah kat aku la.

Thank god Wan's reaction was like.. quite good (well, I hope that was real hahaa. Tak blakon kann??). He said this is the first time he got a cake with his name on it. Ok aku plak yang nak nanges, terharu dengan diri sendiri agagaga. Nasib baik dia cakap macam tu.. taklah aku rasa berdosa sangat jahanamkan rupa kek dia hehehe. 

 Ok I feel so relieved now. 



P.s. Dear my future husband-whoever-you-are, I once made promise to myself that 'you' would be the first guy to receive cake I made. I'm sorry that I broke the promise. Only for this time, ok.. consider this as sample or trial before I bake the best one for 'you'. hahaa
[UPDATED] P.s.p.s. I guess I have to make this thing clear, in case you guys misunderstood. He is just a friend. I feel bad that people might misunderstood when he is actually engaged to another woman out there. Someone's husband, someone's fiancé, someone's boyfriend, I just.. don't do these kind of things ;)



with love,

Friday, 24 January 2014

Do you wanna build a Snowman?


So as we thought there would be no more snow this year because it is almost the end of January, we were totally wrong. After so many days, finally snow fell from the sky again, and this time much heavier than the first snow we saw on November last year. It was so beautiful and white, so so so lovely!

Lesson learnt, we know we should appreciate it this time. Who never knows when we will get the chance again, aite? When Fatin Whatsapp-ed us during Subuh to take a look outside of the window, we were all excited to see snow, and the plan to go to Kaufland at 10 changed to as early as 8.30 in the morning! While waiting until 8.30 a.m., I kept on looking through out the window, pray hard it would last longer this time.

Btw, I've bought a monopod last few weeks ago, so I guess this is the right moment to try it out!

 Opps! 

We had coffee in the morning and enjoy the lovely view of snow fell and melted on the ground. We made 2 snowmen despite freezing hands we got from touching and shaping the snow, I've even brought raisins and nuts for his eyes too! I guess we should bring a bowl and syrup to make ABC next time. hehee

Wish Fatin was with us today. Patinnnnnnnnn!


Video compiled from the morning I woke up, looked out the window and headed to Schwaben Gallerie to enjoy a cup of hot coffee!



Oh Allah, please give us more snow before winter is over.

Dear snow, please stay longer.
Please winter, be nice to me.

P.s. Actually the monopod I've bought come together with the head for phone, that was the main purpose I bought it. I want to use it with my phone. Unfortunately.. Note 2 couldn't fit in! It is only for iPhone users. bohooooo I hate chuuuuuuuuuu!



with love,

Thursday, 16 January 2014

Gigi punya cerita.

Assalamualaikum!

It's been a whileeeeeeeee.. nay? Ok ok, malas nak cerita panjang lebar. Sebelum itu, kalau korang stok-stok geli tengok benda-benda jijik, sila jangan baca post ni. Sebab aku pun geli nak post hahaa. Kalau tengah makan tu, habiskan makanan dulu sebelum tersembur depan laptop.

If you're a loyal reader of my blog, there was one time when I posted about problems with my teeth. It started in 2011 when my teeth broke into half (Geraham pulak tu! For the whole epic story, you can read it here). Lepas tu terus pergi jumpa dentist, separuh gigi yang patah tu kena tampal. Alhamdulillah, lepas tu ok je.

So al-kisahnya, semalam aku pergi jumpa dentist, tak ada problem pun, saja mengada-ngada buat appointment nak check-up, konon nak buat scaling la mentang-mentang free. Ermm.. bukanlah free, tapi since segala jenis check-up kat sini covered by insurance yang aku wajib buat as foreigner student and bayar 80 tiap-tiap bulan, mahal kotttt. So macam sia-sia je kalau tak pakai hahaa. 



So, pergi klinik gigi, doktor pun check la.. then dia perasan macam ada bengkak dekat gigi yang pernah kena tampal dulu, dekat gigi separuh ori separuh tampal tu. Aku dah lama perasan jugak sebenarnya. Aku syak tampalan dia terbuka balik sikit sebab setiap kali lepas makan aku kena gosok and floss gigi dengan hebatnya, sebab ada je makanan tersangkut. Kononnya dengan menggosok dan floss gigi, settle la. Konon. Bukan apa, dua tiga kali jugak aku pergi klinik lepas tu nak suruh doktor buat something la dengan gigi tu. Tampal baru ke, do whatever possible, this is your profession, your job, what you're good at, tapi doktor boleh check pastu buat macam takde masalah pun. Chett.

Pastu dalam kitorang bercakap bak itik dan angsa (cakap Deutsch, tapi lintang pukang janji kau paham aku paham), doktor tu cakap nak kena x-ray tengok macam mana. Kalau teruk, ada possibility kena cabut. 

What???? Cabut??? 

'Ok ok tenang, Azyan. Tak kott.' Nak sedapkan hati. Sekali doktor tu x-ray..



Nampak tak x-ray kat belakang tu? Nampak tak gigi yang bentuk pelik sikit tu? Sekeliling dia lutsinar (baca hitam) tu. Doktor cakap, bakteria dah merebak sampai akar. Euww.

So kesimpulannya, CABUT! Huwaaaaaa.


Takde pasal, cari pasal kannn. Ni memang first time aku kena operate, walaupun minor je. Horror gile kot kena bius bagai, ngilu! Part dia potong gusi, tu takyah citer keseriauan dia. Tebuk lubang pastu amik cangkuk nak tarik, tapi tak berjaya.. Masa dia amik playar(?) tu aku dah errrrkk dah..

Lepas 10 minit gitu, doktor cakap, "Bravo!" sambil sebelah tangan pegang playar ada gigi sebelah lagi tepuk-tepuk bahu aku. Haaaa dah habis azab. Aku bangun dari kerusi, tengok gigi yang da kena cabut tu..



AMARAN: 18SG (Jijik!)

Hahahahaahahahaa.. geli giler kan? Jom pakat muntah ramai-ramai. Dah bukan main kena filter dengan camera360 dah gambar ni, tetap nampak jijik. Ahh tak pedulik!


Kalau ikutkan, aku tak terkejut sangat pun kena cabut, sebab dari awal-awal gigi ni patah separuh 4 tahun dulu aku dah cuba terima kenyataan yang aku kena give up gigi ni, tapi masa tu belum sampai ajalnya. Ni dah tiba waktu, aku redhakan je la.


So, pagi tadi kena buat check-up lagi untuk check takut ada infection ke. Alhamdulillah, so far ok, walaupun darah still keluar bak air paip. 

Try tanya doktor berapa harga kalau nak implant gigi (baca gigi palsu). Dia cakap dalam 2500. Waaaaa.. 

'Insurance tak cover cost tu, Azyan. Harap maklum. ' Nanges dalam bantal.


So this was one kind of food I could eat for the whole day. Kesian kannn. Ok tipu. Malam tu gagah jugak masak tomyam makan dengan nasi putih. Perghh lantak la!


P.s. Sekarang jadi OKU ni nak makan kena kunyah sebelah pipi je, sedih betul. Nak gigi palsu baru. Sponsor pleaseeeee :D

P.s.p.s. Btw, ada satu lagi check-up dengan dentist, tapi dekat klinik lain la.. Bulan 2 ni, untuk braces. Heheheheehehe. Dah buat appointment tu sebelum tahu kena cabut gigi lagi. Bukan main doktor puji gigi aku hari tu tak payah buat braces pun. Tak tahu laa apa doktor nak cakap tengok gigi ropong aku lepas ni. Check-up je la, sebab free. Nak buat braces tak mampu kot. Atau.. ada siapa-siapa nak sponsor? LOLOLOLOL



with love,

Tuesday, 7 January 2014

DIY: Dua'as project.

So, my two weeks holiday is over, back to reality, I'm having nervous breakdown since the exam is around the corner! I mean, yeah, it's in February, but I really have to work hard from now because.. it's a lot, and there are one or two subjects that I feel like.. zero! Yadaa yadaaaaa. The system is so different from UiTM; no quizzes, no tests, no projects, means no carrymarks, totally depending on our performance in final exam. Scary, aite? That's why I am so freaking out!

I realized that I have to do something to start with. To get the mood to study, I mean. So, I did this.


I've printed out the Dua'as that I've posted on one of my entries last year, let me check.. hahh it's here (I left some tips for students), decorated it with dried flowers that I've collected (sticked it in my book for fun, never thought that I might gonna use it now!) since the first day I arrived here, and framed it! Tadaaa. Pretty cool idea, isn't it?


Takde keje kannn.

Always remember to start with Bismillah in whatever you do. I hope that I can always have some peace, better understanding whenever I study. I hope you too. InsyaAllah. 

Have a nice day!


P.s. Glue is still sticking on my fingers and fingernails no matter how many thousand times I wash my hands. Sighhh



with love,

Thursday, 2 January 2014

One fine morning.

Mungkin sebab PMS, emosi aku tak stabil. 

Bangun pagi tak sempat gosok gigi lagi, member baik aku masa diploma whassap. "Aya, bila kau balik for good, or balik cuti?"

Aku jawab, "InsyaAllah kalau lepas thesis aku on time, end of August. Awat? Kau nak datang jalan sini ehh? Meh larr."

Dalam otak aku kalau soalan-soalan berbaur begini ada dua sebab je, samada nak datang jalan-jalan tempat aku, atau nak jemput pergi majlis perkahwinan. 

Ding dongggg, I was right. She's getting married! Lepas lama menyingle (heh?) parents dia kenalkan, Alhamdulillah majlis akan diadakan bulan Jun 2014. Heyyy, tak sempat tu aku nak balikkk.

Anyway, I am soooooo excited for her, jelly melly jugak since we're both single and selalu melalak takde laki memasing, and she's finally found THE ONE. I am so happy to hear such a great news. Excited kot member-member nak kahwin. 


Habis conversation via whatssap, pergi dapur buat breakfast pancake sambil dengar lagu Liyana Jasmay Cinta Bersatu, sebab macam sesuai je untuk lagu-lagu tema kahwin ni. Nyanyi happily, sengih sorang-sorang. 


New book by Lang Leav arrived yesterday, yikes!

Siap masak, duduk kat meja makan, potong pancake yang tersedia atas pinggan sambil browse Facebook, satu demi satu gambar kahwin kawan-kawan terpampang dekat screen. Banyak pulak orang kahwin tahun ni. Hmmmmm -_____________-

Tutup Facebook, buka Youtube tengok Gag Concert, gelak sorang-sorang.


"Takpe, masa kau akan tiba punya nanti." Terima kasih sebab cuba sedapkan hati aku, tak payah cakap pun aku dah tahu dah, aku dengar tu berjuta lemon kali dah. Don't worry kawan-kawan, I am totally fine. Aku tak rasa apa-apa pun, kadang-kadang je rasa luar biasa. I am fine.

Semua salah PMS.


with love,

Wednesday, 1 January 2014

New Year 2014.


So 2013 has come to the end, and we celebrated it decently. Had Nasi Ayam for lunch, played with firecrackers bought by Wan that night, and unexpected plan to go to Schlossplatz to enjoy the arrival of 2014 with beautiful fireworks all over the places. Al-maklum lah ada orang tu nak merasa final new year celebration lepas 5 tahun dekat  Germany sebelum balik Malaysia for good. InsyaAllah, this would be our first and last new year celebration here in Germany too. Kalau grad on time la kan. InsyaAllahhhhhhhhh

Nasib baik bawak bodyguard skali, orang mabuk main firecrackers sesuka hati je. Chett.


Bodyguard sabotaj amik gambar ktorang time takde bunga api.
Time dia, ada je banyak. Ini tidak adil, tidak adil baginya. Lagu Yuna~

Anyway, happy new year and have a wonderful year ahead, everyone!


P.s. I'm so gonna miss this precious moment, definitely!
P.s.p.s. I'm kinda addicted to this new youtuber Motoki. He's such a funny dude! For new year, this 'How To Be Happy' video from him for you guys woot woot! All other videos are on his channel, check 'em out!


with love,

Auf Wiedersehen 2013, Halo 2014!

from Tiffany & Co.

New year, new resolutions, nay? Unlike last few years, I don't really have specific resolutions that I want to achieve this year (can you believe that?), well, I do have some in particular, I'll give some thought to that matter, later. tehee. 

The fact that I turn eight and twenty this year (Am I? Goshhh, in October, take note that), I do want to achieve at least one or two from the above. Or maybe.. four? Guess which one. 


Hahaaha ok ok, it's too obvious, it's too obvious, Azyan! yada yadaaaa.




2013 has been a year of change for me. Staying in a new country and starting everything from the scratch. Facing up to a lot of fears and going through them. It's so liberating to do what you fear.. realizing the fear is not real, it's only an illusion.

So each new year, we have before us a brand new book containing 365 blank pages. Let us fill them with all the forgotten things from last year—the words we forgot to say, the love we forgot to show, and the charity we forgot to offer. 


Well, I'm excited to welcome 2014! There is still so much to give, live and experience. Happy New Year, friends!




P.s.  28? Really??? Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

with love,