Saturday, 30 November 2013

It's a wake up call.

Check result untuk first test hari tu.


Walaupun result tu tak bawak ke final.
Tapi rasa down giler.
Sedih giler.

But I think I know why.
Yes, I think THAT is the reason.

Kerana aku pernah doa
kalau aku leka, 
kejutkan aku
dengan cara yang paling lembut.

Aku sedar aku alpa.
Pada DIA.


It's a wake up call, 
to return.

P.s. Padan muka aku.

with love,

Friday, 29 November 2013

Nervous ni.

So my youngest sister is getting married this Saturday.

Aku yang cuak.
Aku yang nervous.

Takut masa skype live akad nikah nanti, aku yang nangis.

P.s. Mak, nak balikkkkkk.

with love,

Thursday, 28 November 2013

Sofa Biru.

Oh goshh, so my book I've ordered all the way from Malaysia has safely arrived! Sofa Biru by Nadhira Brundage. Bangun awal-awal pagi redah kesejukan pergi collect dekat Deutsche Post padahal boleh je masuk dalam mailbox. Saje je kannn.

Kos buku: RM20, kos penghantaran: RM41.75. Nanges bawah bantal.

Some of my favourites. Sangat terkesan dihati. Perghh.

And I kinda like this. 

Because I have the same situation, the same thought when I wanted to said it out loud, to order, instead of this, I'd go with "Mamak! order boyfriend lebih manis satu!". Terang, jelas dan jujur. Nak proof? Read it here.

No, no, it doesn't mean that I am into mamak now. Hmm.

P.s. Ok Enough, I can't post all of my favourites here, because seems like I love most of it. Nanti Nadhira tak boleh cari makan. Go and grab the book at Kinokuniya, I think, they have this. Tak payah bayar kos delivery pun. Oh lupa, kos fuel, tol, dengan parking kereta still kena bayar. Hmm macam jadi mahal jugak je. 

with love,

Wednesday, 27 November 2013

Last week.

So, this is kinda summary of what I did or happened for the last whole week. It was pretty meaningful week and we were quite busy. And see how my mood swings from all of these simple little things. PMS mungkin?

From left to right;
  1. Despite mid-term test that we have this week, we still need to sacrifice our weekend, attended 2 days class, located 25 minutes walk through the muddy forest, and with no light from the street or torchlight, the night couldn't be more scarier! 
  2. Yea, enjoyed homemade dessert while watching drama. Sempat je kannn.
  3. I love to decorate my room, so I bought this cupcakes holder which I went to so many shops but couldn't find the perfect size, I kept on thinking about it and tadaaa.. thank god Amazon has it! 
  4. And again, idea came when it seems like I really have to do something to cover my window from Farid neighbours, so instead of cover it with wallpaper, I replaced it with small curtain and I am so satisfied with the outcome! Don't copy my idea!
  5. Pokok mati. Too much water poured I guess.
  6. Study group at my place on Sunday, finally baru nak buka buku kannn. Bagus.
  7. November 25th, 4.52 p.m. the class ended and we walked out from the building, we saw snowflakes dancing and slowly covering the ground. Yes, my first snow ever!
  8. Mood study: OFF. Snowy outside, I sat in front of the window, enjoyed a cup of oldtown white coffee malaysia mariiii. Heaven!
  9. The next day we had a test. I did bad hahaa. No good, no good. That evening, I bought new pokok to replace the old one. Happy!

So yea, despite cold weather, I enjoyed it so much, and its freaking snowing kottt. First time. Hexcited!

with love,

Monday, 25 November 2013

That first virgin snow.

November 25, 2013, 4.52 p.m., 

After 27 years so many years living in this world, I experienced the first snow in my entire life. Alhamdulillah. I am not trying to exaggerate, pergi travel negara 4 musim lapan ribu kali pun we never choose winter season to visit. Siapa nak jalan time winter, mat saleh pun cari malaysia nak sunlight kot! 

I mean, the experience of living and studying in foreign country, surviving thousands of kilometre far from my family, surviving winter, meet different kind of people and make friends, travel and experience different kind of cultures, expand knowledge from what I see and learn. Priceless.

That moment when I saw snowflakes were dancing and falling from the sky. That feeling. To grew up surrounded by all siblings graduated from university abroad, looked at their photos back then, I always wanted to have that kind of experience, always wanted to be just like them. Alhamdulillah, I made it, at that moment, I just realized that. Alhamdulillah.

Mak, Abah, Abang Zam, Abang Zul, Abang Nan, Kak Layla, Kak Sah, Adik, I did it, finally!

P.s. shout out untuk ipar duai jugak, Kak Aznim, Kak Zai, Abang Bock, Abang Sab. Anak-anak buah favourite, Alya, Alif, Airis, Aina, Arif, Aila, Danish! Hahamboii da macam bagi ucapan penghargaan kbai.

with love,

Saturday, 23 November 2013

That 9 years.

because the way we met for the first time was so unique. 
because how we've got to know each other was unforgettable.
because how we've became close was undeniably sweet.
because how we've lost contact for 9 years is more than enough.

Welcome back to my life.
Oh, I forgot, you have always been a part of my life, literally. 
because you're the owner of my ATM pin numbers.
Just because.

P.s. balik Malaysia nanti, ngopi jom? ;)

P.s.p.s. the song plays on my head most of the time these days, just because I love to listen to it. No other reason. 

with love,

Friday, 22 November 2013

Weekend project DIY: Pen holder.

So I've bought a pen holder since I couldn't bring all my colour pens in huge pencil case like I did in Malaysia, because it is way too inconvenience, and people start staring, like.. I have to change this colour to that colour when writing notes during lecture when the others only use one or two colours, then suddenly my pen dropped on the floor, and I couldn't reach it myself I have to ask whoever sat in front of me. Blurghh leceh. Plus, the size of the table is like soooo limited that I couldn't sepahkan all my pens on the table and choose what colour I want. Sedih!

So yea, I have to think of another way to cheer myself up, I might not be able to bring all complete colours during lecture, but I have to place it nicely, atleast. So I've bought this and it is totally kayu. I was not so happy since it didn't really match with my room theme (I love white these days, I don't know why!) So, I painted it white using water colour. That's the easiest and cheapest way after all!

I planned to decorate it more but DIY thingy are kinda expensive here, I wonder why. But this is enough, as long as it matches my room, I couldn't be more happier! :D

P.s. Don't ever ask me the cost of that pen holder.
P.s.p.s. and I started to paint all of my things white, the recent one; mirror frame.

with love,

Sunday, 17 November 2013

Rindu, rindu, rindu.

It is hard to lie in front of kids. Before I came here, I didn't know how to explain to Alya that I have to leave for a year, so I lied, told her that I will be back on 'Saturday, 365 days later.' Of course, she is just a kid, she wouldn't understand. 

So, she waited. On Friday the week I left, she excitedly mentioned "Esok hari Sabtu, Aunty Yan balik esok!". But I didn't. And she was sooooo merajuk with me and didn't even want to see me on Skype. sobs. 

But when I was about to hang up, she was longer merajuk, so we've become friends again.

To know that Alya have bought a pair of sandals the same pattern, same colour as my purple Fitflops simply melt my heart. And upon her request, applied thick eyeliners just like me before make a performance on stage on her graduation day is the ultimate lovely things she has done. 

She is a big girl now. All of them are.

Auww I miss all of you kiddos to the aquaria and back because to the moon is too mainstream. hehehee

P.s. Sponsor ticket balik Malaysia pleaseeee.

With love,

Saturday, 16 November 2013

Blog in private, soon.

November 16th, 2.22 a.m.,

For whatever reason I am writing this now I don't know. Just because. I am writing this despite this cold weather and sleepy moment I keep on yawning till my tears fall down (due to frequent yawning, as usual!) So yea, I have at least a reason why I hold myself from fall asleep. I have to write this down, like now, or never.

I've been thinking of this so many times. As I started my blog 5 years ago, I never thought of getting people to read my blog. Yes, I do leave some tips, sometimes, which I got quite numbers of email for further tips and people want to be friends. Thank you, I sincerely appreciate that. 

It was meant to be the place where I rant over a lot of things, and I write it down here, freely without any secret.

And it is especially meant for my family to see how am I doing here in Germany, since I don't really post hundreds of photos on Facebook because.. it is too mainstream, if you got what I mean.

Well, I always write more on my blog since it is some kind like a diary to me. Ok, let me get straight to the point. It is just.. as I am writing this, I feel like I don't have privacy in my life, anymore. 

So, I've give some thoughts over this thing. I will set my blog in private starting next week. I don't know for how long, it might takes a few days, a few weeks, a few months or it is even possible for a few years. It just a matter of time, when I feel less insecure.

Don't worry I will keep on blogging as usual as it has been my hobby since ages. Only for this time, I keep it for myself and might open for invited readers only. Thank you for all these time.

P.s. You know I can trace where my silent readers are from, right? So it is getting more ridiculous nowadays when I cannot possibly guess exactly who are the people reading this. It's bothering me, that's why.

with love,

Friday, 15 November 2013


.. and the fresh smell from the grass. I love it.

P.s. the scent of rain on dry earth, and they called it petrichor (n.)

with love,

Tuesday, 12 November 2013

From Sofa Biru.

                                                                                                                                                     aku tahu
                                                                                                                                                  kau bukan
                                                                                                                                                    realiti ku

                                                                                                                                       tetap aku berhias
                                                                                                                                             berharap kau
                                                                                                                                     menjengah mimpi.

written by Nadhira Brundage from her released book, Sofa Biru. Very well written. Sentap sekejap. Bought my own copy all the way from Malaysia, hopefully selamat sampai lah ye. And my another personal favourite from her..

the best thing about me
is you

the best thing about her
is you too.

What's sad.

P.s. Mahal cost posting lagi dari harga buku. Nanges.

with love,

Sunday, 10 November 2013

In Mannheim.

9 November 2013.

Jalan, jalan, jalan. Memang ktorang di taja pergi Germany untuk jalan dan shopping je heheehe. So this time blame Wan for dragging us all the way to Mannheim to meet his seniors. Fine, ktorang actually risau kalau-kalau Wan kena culik jalan sorang-sorang lalalaa.

Mannheim is actually the second-largest city in Baden-Württemberg, after StuttgartIt is unusual among German cities in that its streets and avenues are laid out in a grid pattern, leading to its nickname "die Quadratestadt" a.k.a. city of the squares

So yesterday we've visited the 18th century large Baroque palace in Mannheim which is now houses the Uni of Mannheim. Untunglaa uni lawaaa! Well, uni of Mannheim is actually considered to be the best business school in Germany. 

Apart from that, the civic symbol of Mannheim is der Wasserturm, a water tower just east of the city centre.

It was really a fun day trip to Mannheim. Make new Malaysian friends yang kinda sengal-sengal bomba sket, fefeeling Malaysia sangat. I think the real agenda for that day was to makan! Seriously we ate over and over again.

I've been craving for macaroons and couldn't find one in Stuttgart (seriously Stuttgart??), thank god I don't have to wait for our trip to Paris to eat Ladurée which I don't know when its going to happen. Thanks Kuiz for treating us those yummy macaroons! Thanks to the others too bawak ktorang jalan-jalan pusing Mannheim.

Okla, fine, thanks jugak la dekat Wan sebab bawak ktorang sekali balik kampung halaman. But still, jangan lupa belanja ktorang coffee tau sebab temankan! ;)

P.s. So sorry for the low quality photos, dah elok charge bateri camera the night before, lupe bawak pulak! The photos were taken by using Galaxy S4 and Note 2. So I kinda mess up with the pixels and what not. Mohon mengerti. sobs.

with love,

Saturday, 9 November 2013


with love,

Definition of 'Copycat'.

Copycat /ˈkɒpɪkat/
noun: copycat; plural noun: copycats; noun: copy-cat; plural noun: copy-cats

  • a person who copies another's behaviour, dress, or ideas.
  • denoting an action, typically a crime, carried out in imitation of another.

P.s. Mohon terasa.

with love,

Friday, 8 November 2013

27 October birthday bash.

Assalamualaikum and Guten Tag, Leute! This post is soooo last year week. Well, I've been busy with school and.. I don't know. 

Last Friday was a public holiday (again!) here, so my sweettttt friends threw a small party to celebrate my postponed birthday since the birthday girl was so busy on her birthday, blame Metzingen Outlet City for held big end-of-season sale for only 5 hours on that day! 

Auwww.. Pink-and-blue theme as requested by me, siap Hello Kitty lagi. Milka cake sedap pun dapat as requested jugak tauu.. Frozen pun frozen la. 

Thanks korang for the party, the foods were fantastisch! Gigih Aina dengan Wan buat karipap pagi-pagi (takde gambar karipap tu plak!). Everything yang lain was prepared by ourselves. Buat sate sendiri kottt, gile kentang! Thanks Wan dengan Farid yang kental membakar sate kat luar sejuk-sejuk tu! Bbrrr

Additional for my new collection, birthday pressie from Farah and Fatin, scooter tu. Sukeeeee! Jam robot given by Wan. Saje la tu kan nak perli aku suruh on time sket sebenarnya kan. Multipurpose jadi tempat gantung bracelets, tambah ribbon sket nak bagi nampak gegirl hehee. Thanks korang muahh!

P.s. because if everyone wears it, I don't want it ..because wear Pandora is just too mainstream mihmihmih.

with love,