Wednesday, 29 February 2012

Love letter from Temerloh.

Yea, I received a lovely DIY envelope today.

And guess what, its a wedding invitation card from Ayzee!

What a great idea to create this one-of-the-million style wedding invitation card! Super cute and extravagantly creative. 

I keep on showing off this to my colleagues, I can't help it. hehee

I'm looking forward for this carnival wedding concept on Mar 10, 2012. Wait for the pictures!

Anyway, congratulations Ayzee & partner Qawiem!

With love,

Saturday, 25 February 2012

My daily routine these days.

Hi peeps! Haven't update my blog since my last entry 'Wordless Wednesday' 2 weeks ago with Celebrity Fitness bag posted. Yes, I am now a member of Celebrity Fitness, yeayy! 

That's explained why my blog is kinda spider webbing, the owner is currently so tight up with hectic daily routine these days. 9 a.m.-6.30 p.m. at the office, go to the gym straight after work till 10.30p.m. balik kepala ting tong ting tong, tido.

But I am indeed happy with my new lifestyle. I feel like my world is getting back to normal (hehh?). Meeting new people and create new friends, I am now opening my eyes wider to see what's actually going on in the real world, not just sticking in front of my lappie 24/7!

Why I choose to join the gym? I've decided to join it since November last year. But I was sorting things out, comparing between gym X and gym Y, apparently I choose Celebrity Fitness since it is near to my house and I can stop by after work or whenever I want.

I read somewhere that our metabolism rate is getting lower by the age of 25. I am 26 this year. That means if I want to get fit, this is the right time, before its too late. So yeah, I have to. Some other reasons;

* Our family has high blood sugar and high blood pressure history. So I better control myself now.
* I had a cough for over 2 months and my immunity system is kinda weak.
* I want to look good on my bestfriend's wedding day, Nada. In December. hahaa yea it's freaking December! But I don't care.
* Hit the gym is kind of my new way to release tension. Budget cool macam dalam drama korea la kan. buwekkk.
* Honestly I want to look good in picture, so I don't have to like "Heyh, I look fat, retake the photo!"
* I want to get fit. Taklah semput memanjang! Dengan harapan nak ikut panjat Gunung Kinabalu with my brother this coming June. berangan.
* I want to feel confident I don't have to hold my breath to cover up my tummy. Believe me, I'm good at covering it :p
* I am manhunting. hahaha ok, I am serious.

So, how did I join it? I was actually had a meeting with architect for one of our project, and the office is so near to Wangsa Walk Mall. After the meeting, I stopped by at the mall since I was craving for Each A Cup and walked into the gym. 

Well, it was kinda embarrassing looking at those people working out while I was there drinking 2 cups of fattening Pearl Milk Tea! So the consultant was explaining about the gym and I was like 'oh, aahh' while sipping the bubbles, 'sropppp.'

The consultant then told me that they were having promotion for first visit and that was the last day of the promotion. It was kinda great deal to have, and yes, very tempting, but I was rushing to get back to the office, I paid deposit, came back after work and paid the rest.

So, that was it.

Ok ok. this is the hidden story behind it. If you remember I blogged about Mr Architect I met in previous post, I actually met his bestfriend at the gym during my second visit after I officially become a member! 

Now that I recall everything, the architect I met during the meeting is one of his colleague, so basically Wangsa Walk Mall is kinda his place. Second, recalling how he has a great body, that gym is the answer! What a fate, I mean coincidence. *cough uhuk uhuk*

I once wrote this 'If she's given another chance to meet him again, that's DESTINY. If not, they're just not meant to be.' in my previous post. But until now, I haven't see him at the gym yet. Well, let's wait what's next.

Anyway so far, I'm having great fun at the gym. Attending dancing class, yoga class, sauna, even taking a shower at the gym feels great on tired muscles! yehaaaaaaa.

Till then, peeps! :)

With love,

Saturday, 11 February 2012

A pretty long, boring thought about life, and love.

This post is somewhat related to my Du'a in previous post, Forgive me, and save me. I've been thinking for couple of days to write this down since it's kinda personal to me, and might get boos.

I am happy and living my life as a 26 y-o single woman when all of sudden the wedding invitations start rolling in. Everyday someone is announcing a wedding. The invitations are coming fast and hard,  closest friends are leaving and creating a new family life. All of a sudden, I realize I am the last single woman standing.

Who says I am not jealous? I am jealous to the bones adoring how these two people living in 28.4 million population, and in the middle of the crowd, they met each other. Meeting each other in the middle of the crowd is amazing, but getting into each other is more amazing!

When I was taking shower this morning, looking at myself into the mirror, I started to think about my life.

What if, I might not get what I've planned, to have a wonderful family, a lovely supportive husband to lean on and beautiful kids to cheer me up every morning?

What if, I get a husband who actually depends on me and expecting me to take his responsibilities to support the family?

Or what if, I don't find the one, and ended up living my life being single, alone, for the rest of my life til my last breath? The last part scares me the most, and my eyes started to tear up. 

Should I start to plan about my life after retired? Should I start looking for a house so that I have a shelter to live in? Or should I invest on old folk home I'm going to stay at when I'm getting old and alone?

I am neither pretty nor has a great body, neither rich nor famous among friends. I don't have a great sense of humor, not an attractive person who people will look at me twice, not good enough for people to refer to. I don't work with big established company with huge payment offered, which people are dying to have my job. 

I don't have all these things. To be specific, I have nothing.

I always consult myself with "Oh let's not think about it, there's no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen." but the truth is, I am afraid.

Ever since then, I may adore some guys on and off once in a blue moon, but I stop trusting. I stop hoping, and I stop giving hope. I am living a plain life. In other words, I am being careful not to fall for it.

I happen to read a great article in The Star yesterday, 'Falling in Love takes guts' narrated by Jojo Struys and the article makes me realize the real problem in me.

These are few lines taken from the article.

In order to really love someone, we have to be prepared to be ‘vulnerable’ and to drop all the masks we usually wear in life.

Everyone has different faces for different occassions but how many people see us for who we are, right down to the apple core of our souls?

On this fascinating journey of love, I realized some time back that love and fear don’t really mix. They are like oil and water. The irony is I finally fell in love when I lost the fear that I would never find it. There were other fears that wondrously and surprisingly melted away as well. I was able to completely be myself.

It is an incredible feeling to safely know that despite all your flaws and imperfections, that someone would wholeheartedly accept and love you anyway. I realize it is better to be open rather than closed to what some would describe as the strongest emotion on Earth. When we are too preoccupied trying to protect our hearts, we are missing out on the greatest adventure of our lives, no matter how exhilirating and challenging relationships might be. It’s worth it.

I had a deep thought after read this article. I never give a chance for myself to see people around me, and I never give a chance for people to get to know me. I sit alone with my eyes closed, expecting someone will come to me, saying I am the one, when I'm actually sitting in a dark, closed room. Nobody can see me.

I don't know how long it takes to fully open up my eyes to see, and open up my heart to give to. But I'm slowly giving myself that chance. I am waiting to meet the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with, without any fear, and it just feels right :)

And among His Signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between your [hearts] . . . -Qur’an 30:21


With love,

Thursday, 9 February 2012

First site meeting.

Attend meeting with client and other parties is part of my job working under consultancy engineering company. I have attended quite a number of meeting, but today was my first time attended a meeting at site project I involve in, Phase 2 of 98 unit houses in Putrajaya.  

As I passed by the neighbourhood, it left me in awe.
Yes, we are still in Malaysia.
 Not in LA.
 Not even in Desperate Housewives series!

Phase 2 is coming soon, at price about 1.8million. Grab it, or leave it.

With love,

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

Forgive me, and save me.

Forgive me for my sins.
Forgive me for my stupidity.
Forgive me for my wrongs.
“ihdina siratal mustaqim..”
Forgive for my times of selfishness.
Forgive me for the times I sat and complained when I should have been grateful.
For You are Al-Aziz, the All Mighty.
Al-Khaliq, the Creator,
Al-Jalil, the Glorious,
Al Malik-Ul-Mulk, the master of sovereignty,
Al-Karim, the Munificent,
and best of all, You are Al-Ghafur, the all forgiving.
Subhanallah wa be Melka.

Ya Allah you know what’s in my heart and my words you hear,

Sunday, 5 February 2012

Kemaman, I'm back after years!

Hey hey hey! Just reached home after 2 days 1 night journey back to my hometown, Kemaman and you don't know how excited I am now writing it down here!

Kemaman was my hometown back then. I lived there since after few months I was born. Yes, I am neither Selangorian nor KLrian, I am from Terengganu kite! hehee. Oh btw, after high school, I entered Perak Matriculation College and barely went back to Kemaman since Perak-Kemaman, about what, 7-hour journey? Urghh. it was tiring! Since most of my siblings are working in KL, abah and mak frequently came to KL and stayed for weeks.

We started to move in KL when I was doing my diploma in Sarawak in the end of year 2006, when we left the house for months and one day, we were reported by our neighbour that someone broke into our house! What an unfortunate event I must say. Abah then decided to sell off his restaurant and we all moved out from the town. And I never went back to Kemaman since then.

Went back to Kemaman yesterday gave me quite a blow. I felt like completely a stranger when I saw new shops and old remained buildings. Everything seemed nostalgic to me. But it brought back all the memories created when I was teenager. Yes, I miss every second moment of it. 

After attended a wedding as soon as we arrived, we drove along the way Chukai town, passed by our old primary and secondary schools, our neighbourhood, our old house (seriously old), our old restaurant before check-in to the hotel nearby. 

Alone, I then planned to visit my besties, Nada, Jiah, Mawarni and Shira's house, eventhough I know most of them are not staying with their parents anymore. But I wanted to visit their mother atleast, but I couldn't even stop the car and knock the door. I only managed to passed by their house and looked from far. 

I then drove off to another neighbourhood where the person I admired before I left Kemaman lives. Everything seemed so unfamiliar to me, I couldn't remember exactly which one is his house. So I went back to the hotel without meeting anyone. 

Mak, Adik and me then went to restaurant nearby Pantai Teluk Mak Nik to enjoy Terengganu dishes satar and otak-otak. Unfortunately we were quite late, only otak-otak left and we ordered the yummy mee calong!

We then stopped by the nearest beach located and took some walk. Ohh how I miss the beach. 
 With full stomach, we then visited Ayah Sue's restaurant and he treated us his delicious sotong celup tepung and keropok lekor. And I thought my stomach was about to explode any soon!

Jiah gave me a call, told me that Nada is back in Kemaman for his late father's majlis tahlil! I really wanted to meet her since then but couldn't reach her idek why. So without any notice, we went back to the hotel, my sister and I changed into baju kurung busuk we wore the whole day, fetched Jiah who I never met since after SPM (oh how I missed her) and parked the car right infront of Nada's house. 

The moment I saw Nada, I felt so indescribably touched and I really wanted to give her big, long hug but I felt busuk so, just a hug. Among us, Nada was the one who I really closed to since form 1. We had the same school bags, same pencil cases, same interests, same style. Whenever there was Nada, there was me, and vice versa. 

Met her yesterday gave me such a relief feelings to see her getting better after his late father's death couple of weeks ago. I couldn't stop looking into her gloomy eyes, and I realized how strong she is.

And guess what, she announced that she's getting married this coming December! Couldn't believe myself we used to spent so much time together, and this lovely bestie is getting married soon. I'm so happy for her! Congrats Nada! *hugs*

We were talking and gossiping til late night without realized how time flies so fast. 
 How I wish to meet Shira, Mawarni and Sya altogether. But being able to meet these two, I feel great enough.

The next day, we packed up our stuffs, sent mom to her friend's house for a small meeting with her other friends. My sister and I went to the famous Hai Peng Kopitiam for breakfast. And to be honest, that was our very first time tried out the coffee after 17 years lived there! No wonder, they called it the best coffee in Kemaman!
We then bought 2 boxes of coffee and Sri Kaya for Abang Nan. Around 11.30 a.m. we checked out the hotel, stopped by the road to buy keropok keping and keropok lekor, and went back straight to KL.

So, our missions completed in less than 24 hours. 
* Visited our former schools and neighbourhood, check.
* Ate otak-otak and went to the beach, check.
* Had breakfast at Hai Peng, check.
* Adik attended her friend's wedding, check.
* Mom met her Makcik Mah and friends, check.
* I met my besties Nada, and Jiah, big check, check and CHECK!

I'm so glad I went back to Kemaman, even after 6 years!
Eee tak boleh blah pose I! buwekkk

P.s. Along the way back to KL, I couldn't stop thinking about how we grew up together, and how much I miss that moment. I. miss. my. friends. already! *cries*

P.s.p.s And I think my health is getting better now. Thank you for your concern! xoxo

With love,

Friday, 3 February 2012

Have been sick, and sick.

I've been coughing for 2 months till now, nonstop, with constant chest pain that never goes away. And doctor asked me take this...

Dear me.

With love,