Thursday, 24 September 2009

Sungkei with Sarawakians.

Sungkei means break-fasting in Sarawak language. We were invited to join bersungkei with Sarawakians at PICC, and of course it was for Sarawakians only. But since most of us are from Sarawak except Yoy and me, both of us berkulit buaya joined them since the organizer, Abu specially invited us too! Well Abu said, people wouldn't noticed that we're actually non-Sarawakian since we speak Sarawak language fluently! Thanks Abu hehee.

We enjoyed listen to the talk by SHELL, and our buffet especially!



With love,

Sunday, 20 September 2009

Park Jae Bum.. come back..

my heart hurts so much seeing this...

“Hottest time of the day? 2PM!!!”
"What time is it now? It's 2PM!"
I don't really care about them at their first debuted, 2PM's 10 Out of 10 just my only song collections from 2PM. But then as I watched Idol Show where they're on it, their new comeback Again & Again really strike me. I'm digging the whole about 2PM. I started learning their names, who was who... I fall in love with ChanSung maknae and then fond with them. but I realized I'm not that fanatic. i just have their picture as wallpaper background, some pictures of them, some songs that I love.. that's all. and thats all downloaded. not something that i bought... I'm a bad fan am I?

But soon, everything, my whole life consisted of 2PM; from the oldest maknae Chansung, to big butt Junho, to ssanti Wooyoung, to the ballad loving okdaeri Taecyeon, to winking machine Nichkhun, to our soulful voice Junsu, and even you, leadja, our one and only leader, Park Jae Bum. I watched every clip I can find, giggle at the little things the members did, watching Idol Show and loving everyone more and more, looking forward to my weekends so that i can go back home, online for 24hours watching Wild Bunny came out. I can't help but laugh and fill my heart with their craziness.
"What time is it?" People would ask. And I would answer, "2PM!!!" When it was really five.
"Repeat that again." And my heart start singing "Again and again and again."

I live in two worlds; the first one is filled with friends and family. The one where I can go out and have fun-laugh with friends, play around, and be stupid. The second one, with the other Wonderfuls, E.L.F.s, Primadonas, VIPs, Cassiopeians, and HOTTESTs. I call this my secret world. The one where I can come home and look forward to 2PM cheering me up. And on September 08, 2009, both my worlds came crashing down.

That night past 12AM was like my whole world totally breaking down. the article ' Jaebom leaves Korea' makes my heart hurts so much. i didn't check any news a few days before which i'm confidently thought nothing's gonna happen. for me what Jaebom wrote in MySpace was nothing and people will forget about it(maybe because i'm not living in Korea) . but that day reading the article and seeing the pictures of him at the airport, i can't control myself but cry! i can't stop crying, recall about the whole things. what's going on? how did it happened? up until 3, I stayed up. I cried, constantly checking Twitter, Allkpop, 2Oneday and Soompi for an update. at almost 4, I gave up and tried to go to sleep. Instead I found myself crying for another two hours until i fall asleep. That morning on September 9, 2009, I woke up and the first thing that crossed my mind was, 'This is all a nightmare.'
‘Why are you crying?’
‘Really? Over something like this?’
‘Loser…you’ll be sad but eventually you’ll move on.’
‘Some kid leaves a boy band and everyone acts as if the president’s been assassinated.’
'Really? thats all make you until this state?'

They don’t understand. Only HOTTESTs do. How can we spell HOTTEST with only six? How can we move on when our leadja has left us? Because 2PM is not seven people, they’re one. Because when one of them falls, one of the members put them on their back and carries them. Because they walk together. Because if seven minus one, then it equals nothing.

We always said we’ll never let our leader walk alone. But you have, haven’t you? You’ve walked alone on this road. We’re merely there as guidance. And somewhere along the way, you found a different path and took it. Even if we try to hold on, we can’t if you’ve let go. But we’ll still hold on, because that’s what we do. We’re HOTTESTs, and we believe in our leader.

Words cannot even describe the way I feel. I’m heartbroken, to
run apart, unstable, and my worlds came crashing down. I don’t want to do anything. I can’t bear to listen to music. I try to occupy myself so I don’t think about it. But as I close my eyes, no music playing because I'm scared I might hear your voice and start crying again, my mind wanders over to how 2PM and HOTTESTs can go on. In my mind, I tell myself, Park Jae Bum isn’t gone; he’s just taking a short break because he deserves it.

Yes, I cried. And so did many of the HOTTESTs out there. Yes, I respect Jae Bum’s decision. But I’m selfish; I want him to come back. Yes, I’m angry at the person who started all this. And I’ll never forgive her. But most of all, yes, I want Park Jae Bum to be happy.

I feel like Jae Bum lives in two worlds too. The first one, he’s Jay Park, the kid who doesn’t want to grow up. The boy who loves to dance because it makes him happy. The boy who have friends and family to support him no matter what. The boy who can grow old and yet, be a boy. And then there’s Park Jae Bum, the leader of 2PM. The man who’s grown and journeyed so far. The man who accepts his members and loves them. The man who shares tears and laughter with his members. The leader, who as a leader, thought of his members when he made his crucial decision.

Be it one month, half a year, one year or even five, HOTTESTs will always wait for our leadja, Park Jae Bum. Because who he is now, is not Park Jae Bum; he’s Jay Park and he needs his friends and family. Be happy, Park Jae Bum. Because you deserve it.

In time, the pain will heal. This shattered heart will slowly be glued and taped together. But the scar will always remain.

because this is what we want to see!! because it's 1.59PM.1 minute is missing..

Waiting For You dedicated to our most Leadja Park Jae Bum..(credit to :Eco6o6)

Saturday, 19 September 2009

double match 20072007 to remember




today is hari raya, double match 20092009, and i will always remember the date two years before, double match 20072007!! OMG! i will never forget that! not any of us actually will forget that! it was such a horrible day, full of suspense, our live and death in UiTM sarawak! July 20th 2007 we were in final year, final semester.

we when swimming at the pool somewhere in Kuching area. it was me, atoong, yoy, hany, wan, bert, gary, apoi, wel, mir, chicheng, avi and some guys i can't remember. it was so not fun for me because i don't do swimming in public, with bikinis! gahhh i know, but it just so not me! i don't know i think that day was so omen, you know, the feelings was not right.. i don't know i just can feel it.. after swimming, avi went home and left us with our another plan. KARAOKE!! because of our large number, of course we can't sing in karaoke box like we always had done. so, one of us suggested (not me, of course) karaoke room! yea right karaoke room.. i had no idea what it was. even until we entered the place, i still don't know IT WAS A CLUB!! GROs were everywhere dancing and bitching and i don't know! OMG how innocent i am! then we entered the room and we sang, i hate to say this, my non-muslim friends did not order beers, but my muslim friends drank. OMG how pathetic was that! i don't know what to say, but what can i say, they were rejected as my candidate future husband whatsoever. NO WAY!

Then that was okayh, until after a few hours, someone knock the door when i was singing. JAIS!!!!! OMG i know! JAIS and police officers!! I.. I.. I'm death! we all be death that's what i thought! with the beers in our room.. i'm speechless. they asked us to sit, and gave the ICs. and we did. they didn't realize the beer tins at first, and when we were about to relief, then one of the JAIS officer realized, and asked whether is it true. now all of us speechless because we know who drank that damn drink, until one of the non-muslim friend lied and said it was him. such a saviour! then our data was recorded and will be sent to university. oh they don't have to do that. they can just give a call blablabla. i was crying badly that night. hany too, too bad for her, she's wearing tudung and was caught! that time hany and I can only say goodbye to ANC. all the hardworks, it's over. we feel bad to our parents. i can't think! Ayah De will know...OMG!!!! damn! how can i forget that? as manager at the hostel division, sure he'll know! what did i do?? after the incident, we stayed outside, lepak at warong Satok to think about it. what can we do? nothing.. just wait what's going to happen. that day, the girls spent outside since we can't enter the UiTM until 7. we were tired and horrible.. i can just pray so that we can still graduate..

we got by HEP to collect our letters, from JAIS! we went to JAIS and were investigated. thank god nothing happened, they just asked about that day, and all of us tell the same story, they released us. but it didn't stop there. a few weeks later, letter from HEP and we have to be asked in court! it's a bad news! when it involved UiTM court, it's not going to be easy. the whole UiTM staffs knew about it(of course including my uncle Ayah De) and we're death! and yes, it was not easy to convinced them. but they was shocked most of us are from CE, and a few of us are ANC's candidates!! i mean all the ANC's candidates from CE for this final semester was in the court, 4 of us. mir, yoy, hany and me. so, if they going to drop the ANCs, there would be no ANCers from CE this year which of course they won't let it be. so, at the end, they gave us as Warning not to go there again, it was in our records, but we're save!! OMG i don't know what to say. so last year, we safely graduated with ANCs Alhamdulillah..


Saturday, 22 August 2009

Dean List Award degree part 5.

Yeay. Another Dean List Award for me and my housemates, Yoy and Shidah! Wan, Yoy's boyfie joined us this time around. Congrats! Hopefully I can see more of us for the coming semester ;)



with love,

butterfly..

Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if u turn your attention to other things, it will come n sit softly on your shoulder..


P.s. butterfly!! sit on my shoulder pleashhhhh

Thursday, 20 August 2009

Updating this secret blog..

Gentle readers,
(well, it's raining outside.. and i do sounds like Lady Whistledown now.. tehee)
it's been a while and This Author trying to keep updating the blog to make it nicer and much much more pleasant to read.


The background have been changed, the content might be improved for my own satisfaction i guess.. there should be more interesting part of my life that i want to reveal.. SOON! but for now, am trying to remember any special event that had happened in the past or present..

Hope to see you soon!




P.s am sooooo addicted to Bridgertons series!! and i just can't believe that Penelope Featherington is actually LADY WHISTLEDOWN!! such a shock!

Wednesday, 8 July 2009

Rome.

. Ciao de ROMA .
*our journey continued from Paris, to Rome!*

At 5 in the morning we checked out the hotel and went to the bus station. The bus arrived at 6.30 a.m. and we almost missed the bus since the train was late! But we managed to get there at 6.18 a.m. and we arrived at the airport at 8.30 a.m. Our next flight to Rome at 9.30 a.m. and again, I slept as soon as we got into the plane! We arrived at 11.30 a.m. and it was so so hot, 37C!! The bus cost €4 only and took us to Termini, very near to the hotel.

As we arrived, we took a rest and had lunch, then started our plan to Coloseum by using train. and yes, it was hot! Qe took some pictures, and got dehyrated. We bought a small bottle of drink that cost us €2.50! But then takkan nk ade case mati sebab dehydrated kat Rome kot. then yangg buat I bangga was that ade 1 japanese tourist ni.. tetibe cakap Jepun dengan kitorg.. lucky us sebab ktorg amek nihongo course so paham die cakap and we can actually communicate! macam tau2 je ktorg tau bahasa Jepun. At least dapat praktikkan. Then we bought some snacks for our dinner and went back to the hotel.
The next day, we went to St. Pietro. it was kinda creepy there.. seriously. Holy water and priest's tombs were everywhere. seram! Then we walked to Pantheon and finally our last place was Trevi's Fountain. After i threw coin and made a wish *secret wish (= and I do hope it will come true* and it was still early at 2 p.m. we went back to the hotel, took shower and nak mkn italian's spagetti la kononnye.. tp tetibe change the plan, mkn nasi bryani kambing! cheehh kat Malaysia pun bleh dapat.
The next morning, we checked out at 8.00 a.m. and arrived at the airport at 9 a.m. sampai kat UK, took shuttle to the train station..arrived at Sheffield's station and Kak Layla fetched us. and Kak Layla said that kitorg itam glerr smpai die pun tak nampak ktorg! then that was the end of our adventure and interesting journey! mencabarr aite?!

P.s. Ohh I would love to share kegantengan Polizia in Rome, eventhough it was just their back! *drool*

With love,

Tuesday, 7 July 2009

Paris.

When we said that we went to Paris and Rome just the two of us, only my sis and me, and they were like freaking out "hahh?!! berani nye kamu berdua nie.. brani sgt!" When I think again, yes we were so brave to go to Paris and Rome on our own. I mean, just my lil sis and me!! But then, it was a great experience i think!

. Boujour de PARIS .
Since our flight was at 6.30 in the morning, and nobody volunteers to wake up early, send us to the airport. So, we decided to take the last train in the midnight before, and slept at the airport! before bertolak lagi da ade probs. we bought the train tickets online (9.38 p.m.), but then when we arrived, our last train to Birmingham was canceled! Great.

But it was considered as their fault, so they asked us to stop at Darby and the person there will handle everything. Cuak jugak at first takut last train kat Darby pun dah lepas. and yeaa, memang dah lepas.. So after some argues, they then managed to get taxi and sent us to the
East-Midlands station.. FOR FREE! It was 12 o'clock and we just missed our last bus. So we need to catch cab to the East-Midlands Airport. And we paid £10 for that 2 miles journey!

And we ended up sleeping in prayer room a.k.a church.. and disebalik langsir ade sejadah. Weird. but then penat sangat, so tido je la. By using Ryanair, I slept along the journey. bile berlepas pn tak sedar. tau2 je da smpai Beauvais Airport. Then we took bus to the city, took train then to Eiffel Tower. It was so hot that day and we were tired enough and not in the mood to take pictures. So we went back to our Master Bed City hotel in Torcy. It was far from the city of Paris and cost us €5.20 one way train! So for those 3 days we spent more than €30. Dear.

On the second day we went to Louvre Museum, La Pyramide, Notre-Dame, and walked around the town.
Then the next day, we visited to Eiffel Tower again and took sooooo many pictures. we walked and went everywhere until we were damnnn tired. Oh yea.. we brought Maggie and 3 in 1 Milo. Apparently, there was no boiler in the hotel. so sbb terdesak gell, we drank Milo using hot tape water! sedeyhh kan? I know.. but it was not that bad actually. When I told my brother about that, he was like "kenape tak amek je credit card abang nan." yea rite, aritu tak offer pun. lalala~


Till my next post, in Rome! bye.

With love,